Last Day

One Last Good Morning wish
One Last lunch
One Last joke
One Last day to use office mail
One Last chat with friends
One Last Good Bye
One Last Day at Office

Found u !

As I am singing "I still haven't found what I am looking for..." a question from a friend changes it all . He asked me the meanings of 'foo' and 'bar' and I am struck sense by a sudden sense of guilt of not having bothered to know the significance of these terms despite having come across these n times. My sense of enquiry beckons me to look it up it on the god of all engines "Google" and a wiki link brings about the revelation. I think nothing else can describe what I feel at this point of time. The mist of oblivion has been cleared by the light of awareness. It is the excitement that a child feels when he manages to join all the dots and there is a complete picture staring right back at his little eyes after his tiny hands meticulously worked to put it all together. It is the same verve and enthusiasm cause now I have the word that I was looking for....Lucid yet crisp and that conveys it all .. FUBAR

Back to blogging

The floating theme is inspired by Sudarshan's blog.I simply loved it....So here I go with a floating theme blogging all over again!

Dissent

I stood there accused and blamed... I did not know my crime then.... Dissent against authority is probably punishable and maybe I am paying a price for my beliefs today .But as I walk on the fineline between right and wrong I wonder what it all means and how much I care for all of this. As I stand on the brink of extrication I believe it was quite worth the price. I defended myself despite the announcement of the verdict and regret it at this hour more than anything. Maybe silence is the best defense at times like this cause I believe my actions were right. But the verdict was there gaping at me like a shameless ape...A stark reminder of my decisions and more than that the traditions here. Etched on my mind these memories may linger for some time but hope the bad flavor in my mouth goes away soon.

Perfect Sunday !

I think I always blame myself for having a lousy week-ends but this one was different.After many mundane week-ends I had an almost prefect one yesterday. I did loads of things in one day and this is what a lazy n relaxing week-end can get close to.I went to the British Library which is a perfect get-away from all places particularly my office(the proximity being one of the biggest bonuses) n then visited Crossword after months together. It is another place I like to be when I get into the mood of blowing off money or investing should I say. But before this I ate pakodas for lunch and above n beyond all dollops of rich chocolate ice-cream. It couldn't have been better. The Sunday got even better with a nice movie and chit chatting with friends and not to forget pastries. Listening to Metallica after days together and then chit chatting again on gtalk..A stark re-realization of the fact that I can be a very big chatterbox . Eating bundi raita and watching 'Desperate Housewives' . It doesn't get any better. The best bit being an 11:30 call and half an hour of simmering hot gossip right from the tawa or should I say a good friend . If my week-end was like an ice-cream this gossip was chocolate syrup for sure. A little reading and lot of sleeping. It was indeed a perfect Sunday !!!!

Everything has a reason...

I have always pondered about this pithy and wondered whether there was anything more to it than a sheer dash of optimism. I always believe misery exists in the form of vicious circles and breaking out of it seems the most formidable task at hand. Despair and agony seem to be just rings clung around to a never ending chain.But when things which make one happy begin to turn up it is almost seems like the first downpour of the season. There is freshness and exuberance associated to it. It is like experiencing the pleasure and exhilaration of running on the empty roads in the rains and nothing at one's end but the intoxicating fragrance of the rain soaked earth.The relief felt is like that given by the first droplets to the earth parched by the scorching heat hanging in there just to quench it thirst. This happiness I guess is also accompanied by a stark realization of the fact that those incidents of the past maybe were just to teach one something new This is when all the pain that one goes through begins to make sense . Burning one's hand seems painful but maybe the best lessons are learnt like this.There is some positive facet to every event and trying to see the pros of everything gives the realization of how it does good. So apart from imbuing more optimism it also gives a sense of objectivity to look at every situation. The happiness washes away the misery of pain and gives the courage to face more hence as one finds reasons to celebrate when one is happy I think just believing that 'everything has a reason' gives more hope to just hang in there and wait for a fresh spell !

Where the mind is without fear

Where the mind is without fear and the head is held high;
Where knowledge is free;
Where the world has not been broken up into fragments by narrow domestic walls;
Where words come out from the depth of truth;
Where tireless striving stretches its arms towards perfection;
Where the clear stream of reason has not lost its way into the dreary desert sand of dead habit;
Where the mind is led forward by thee
Into ever-widening thought and action--
Into that heaven of freedom, my Father, let my country awake.

-Gitanjali