Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Those little angels

When the patches seem rough
and the days do not go by
when the mundaness of life takes u by
when u question your existence
and the belief in your own self
those little angels come by and render help.

To allay your fears and bring a smile to your face
and to remind you that life is one whole big race
that all is not lost with a fight not won
cause there are bigger battles that await your turn
when hope is non-existent and your soul feels despair
those little angels come by and share.

To listen patiently to every word u say
to drive all your uncertainties away
to wipe the tears off your face
and try to provide u all the solace
to help u attain all the inner strength
those little angels show a path with rays that lambent.

To give a hand when u need it the most
and help u attain glories about which u can boast
to help reaffirm all your faith
and get rid of anger and all the hate
to make u believe that u are not vain
god sends the little angels to save u from pain.

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

India's paradox

India is a socialist democratic republican country. This sentence seems to be clearly etched out on my mind as if written on a board with ink that would never go off. I am not sure whether I should be thankful to my schooling for the same or not. It taught me something which every other civics class teaches a student. MUNDANE is what I call it and more than that sad maybe because we are never taught to question what is laid in front of us. It is just like a box of sweets which is gulped down and we never think of the calories that come with it and the end being another breed of citizens who have done nothing but have added to another layer of fat to the already existing obese society.

If I think about each word of the sentence individually I am reminded of a completely paradoxical situation existing in the country complementing it. We live in a democracy so we have the liberty of thought and action. But ours is a country with a soaring population of over a billion people. Does the bureaucracy and corruption driven economy enable each individual to exercise this right is something to be thought about. So the right which all and one would love to exercise is non-existent. Secularism should now I feel be taken off every legal document which professes the country to be one. The only reason being the society not mature enough to unshackle itself from the imaginary chains of caste creed and religion. The reservation which exists in every other sphere of life (if I may say so) is so much a part of our system that we have forgotten that we profess to be secular and more than that forgotten to question why we do so when we still exhibit inhibitions about accepting a bunch of our own people a part of us. Somehow the rosy features of nationalism seem to vanish from this scenario at least. An SE/ST candidate makes it to the IAS merit list or an IIT merit list or any other list in the country despite lesser marks coz in our country we have seats reserved for creatures that belong to this lot!!! If marks be the only criteria to judge an individual's capability why is the case different here?? It is like forcing people to exhibit a sense of socialism for letting them compete with the best in every place(by sacrificing their own place) just because a zillion ages ago they
were suppressed.(Maybe u could hear about bull shit like that only in our country!!)
My college preaches a motto which is very simple for them to comprehend (not to me though.) "Each person one job" so if a less paying company places u, a guy with 60% marks may make it to a bigger firm because he/she need not face the threat from people like u as far as getting the job goes. In short the philosophy liked by every common educated and self esteemed individual in this country would want to have is non-existent and the most loathed policies still exist to bite our ass off. Coming to the word republic - A political system governed by the people or their representatives. We have something called adult franchise to do that but how most people in the country are not judicious enough to make the correct choice...If the choice was judicious may the government would not have had a zillion officials which it does today. The country which boasts of the biggest slum in the world and a downtrodden mass of people battling poverty and illiteracy is maybe not competent enough to appoint people coz it can be lured to cast votes for any dingy leader who promises basic amenities like food or water or electricity.

These were a mere few and broad examples to prove my point and maybe our constitution houses hundreds of such words which resonate with clamor. As we still battle to exist with these paradoxical situations I hope schools teach students to question more and have the conviction to think and not just accept what is served to them on a platter called a teaching period. I hope every individual feels the urge to raise his voice against situations like this. Hope we can extricate ourselves from the shackles of these words before we cease to live....

Friday, June 03, 2005

Kissa kursi ka

As i was conversing with a few ppl arnd in the office i had the urge to put this story down on paper..well the story goes somethin like this.... actually i am thinkin of so many things at this point of time that i feel my representation may be a little botched up but as the sayin goes-"somethin is better than nothing" so a story i guess is better than none!!
well this is one of the very days when i am feeling low. blues!! as one fondly calls them is a very regular phenomena(feeling?) infact a part and parcel of the industry i am in...so i have sort of become immune to it. but thank heavens today is not one of those very bad days (or regular shud i say!!). though i am not beaming with joy i am not feelin the blues 2 !so the low here signifies sitting on one of the very low chairs of the office which almost gives u a feelin like that of a baby monkey tryin to climb a tree but the only diff is that i like to call myself a human being(amateur programmer) and i am only strugglin hard to sit in a comfortable position to code instead of climb for fun!!
well the company i work in is a cmm-level 5 company!! now that makes me wonder abt these standards!! hope it is not 20 ppl trying to accomadate themselves in 5chairs.. so u end up playin the musical chair all thetime!! t alk abt entertainment as a part of work! u will never have to use the slogan-"all work and no play makes jack a dull boy!" so chair or no chair.. excitment is guaranteed as a part of the standards even though working conditions may not be!till i was a part of this place i always thought gold/silver is precious but it just so happens that the chair seems to be take its place here!a minute off ur chair and u find urself place less and in the given situation u might be giving 2nd thoughts abt going to the loo :-) but if ur neighbour is cooperative he/she might as well offer to guard ur chair!! talk abt policing being ominipresent.... and this is one of the very situations. since i have spoken abt entertainment and policing there are more funny stories..u have ppl putting their names on chairs( with plastic sticker 2) so that the "criminal" may get caught asap.. but think abt this when the security guard(the actual guy responsibe for policing!!) takes the chair and ships it off to another wing.. u have females shouting in fury and then u forget whether it is an organization or a fish market..well so the sticker putting may not sound that bad if u are the victim of that situation!! and yes in many govt offices (relatives tell me) ppl used to tie their chairs to prevent them frm being "stolen".. :-)
this always reminds of coll. the chairs and the tables are nailed together so no one can seperate them!!they are like body and soul but the apathy in the office is that nobody likes to take ur table but yes they would love to grab ur chair!!
so if u thought only politicians were very hung up abt their chairs come to this place, u'll realize the importance of the chair...

First drizzle in the city

As clapton fills my ears with the music i have not heard for some time now (and i definitely seem to enjoy it )i take a recap of the last few hrs of my day.....it has been quite some yrs since i stopped being stubborn abt getting drenched in the rain. it is maybe one of those very odd pleasures (or atleast i believe it to be one ) which i have been to taught to abstain frm..today was one of those very odd days when i was reminded of my childhood days of being stubborn to go out and play in the rain..and more than the rain it was the aroma of the sand with tiny droplets of water seeming to satiate evry little soul and the dusky sky , and the cool wind blowing past my face.... as the tiny drops of water stimulated every sensibility of mine( though it felt like piercing needles ,it still made me feel good for reasons unknown to me ), i experienced the exhilaration of existence.... as i drove down my machine back home and sang "father's eyes" on the way, i enjoyed the pleasure of being.. it is hard to think of 2 many things which make u feel alive and a part of a bigger something.. this has been one of the very feelings which i have longed for experiencing (atleast in sometime now..)... and who said an adventure sport was always necessary to get u ticking.... it was one of the days when i experienced the joy of existence as it drove the mundaness of evrday far away and made me feel happy for no big reason...